Repentance from Pride.

Hi there..How’s it going there? How’s life? Hope that you’re having a great time.
I’m doing my School of Worship now here in YWAM Perth, and it’s been my 4th week (starting tomorrow) here. The school has started on 5th April 2009 and will be finished on 19th September 2009.

A glimpse about the school i’m doing now:
Worship does not requires music. It’s a heart attitude. Worship is an important tools uses in spiritual warfare. It impacts the spiritual realm. God is spirit and our enemy himself is not in flesh neither in blood, but in spirit.

My lectures here so far has been so amazing. I had lots and lots of revelations, breakthrough, and getting deeper to know God. Last week teaching was about “Freedom in Worship” by Lynn Packer from NZ. She is an amazing lady uses by God. So sweet and so lovely.. She taught us to have an attitude to approach God with Childlike attitude. On the 4th day of lectures she talked about that topics, freedom to worship God with a childlike attitude. Like a child who always have access to their parent’s presence, so are we. She shared about her life, how she had a lot of rejections, fear, got abused by people. She was having hard time to feel loved by people. Even when she was dating with her ex-boyfriend, Rob Packer who became her husband now, she was so confused by the way Rob treated her. She had never been treated like the way Rob did before by people. Rob never tried to kiss her or even to hold her hand ever. She thought that something wrong with her, cause her previous boyfriend even they are a christian never treated her like Rob did. Shortly she was saying that she’s still in process of healing everyday.

Right before the 1st break of lectures, i felt like God want me to sing her a song, my song that i have written before on my 12th week of my DTS. The song is about my personal revelations being loved by the Father God, the title is “I am Loved”. So I sang it to her. I can see how the song affected her so much, she wept her eyes and felt soo happy cause Daddy has given her a presents! What an example of childlike faith! And then after the break finished, she said to me if I wouldn’t mind to sing my song in front of the class and I said yes. While I was singing the song, she asked all of us to close our eyes to really grasp the meaning of my song and acknowledge it in our heart. Some of my friends cried and cried as they were listening to my song and that God was working in their heart. It was so encouraging to me, knowing that I could blessed people through my own brokenness!

That’s not the end, after i finished singing she asked us to gather around in circle. We moved our chairs aside to have more free space. And then we just jumping around in circle and schouting to the lord like a child! Not long after that all of us were laying down on the floor, she started to laughed really hard, like there was something so funny. Me and all of my friends was wandering what happened, but then we remembered what she taught us that a child laugh a lot (even God laughs, Zep 3:17). So after realizing that truth, we all started to laughs wildly!! It was fun!

After that all of us just relaxing on the floor, laying down comfortly. She walked around us, and started to prophecying each one of us. When she came upon me, she said to me that “I sings representing Father Heart of God, and God will use me when I sings there will be lots of healing upon the people. And I will go to nations to do that.”

It was really encouraging to me, cause before we started this school we need to write down of our expectations toward the school. And one of mine are to have an impacts in leading worship and singing to the people, a full force impact so that there will be changes (repentance, healing) within the people who hears me singing and leading worship.

That was the current news about the lectures. God also has been doing lots of character surgery in my heart, one of them was about an issue of pride. So, i needed money for my student visa (expired 22 April’09) $450 and the insurance $177, total 627$. On april 21st morning in the classroom, Chris Adams, our school leader was announcing to the school that me and hanna were still need some money. And he encouraged all of my friends to pray for me and ask God how much money should they gives to me regarding of my urgent needs. Shortly, people started to gave me their money on that day and the day after; 150$, 227$, 75$, 20$, 75$, 75$, total 622$ plus 6$ that i still have.

I got all the money for visa and insurance in less than 24hrs (23hrs) which was amazing! God convicted me in the morning of 22nd April when i was trying to sorted out the visa’s document. He said that there is a pride in my heart, and i said to God what kind of pride God? I felt like i have been humble enough. And He started to showed me stuff. It was very clear. Here it was, i was afraid to ask to people to give me support, afraid that i will revealing my vulnerable side that i need their support but not wanting to ask directly. In all of my previous newsletter i oftenly wrote to my friends that i needed some amount of money and asked them to pray for me. But deep down in my heart, i really wanted them to realized themself to send me money (without me asking) that i needed. It is considered as a pride to God. And it’s not pleasing to Him. God wanted to deal on this area in my life. So, i repented.

Here i am friend, laid bare, opening my vulnerable side toward you, that i do needs support in financial and in prayer. I have a need of AU$ 4,000 for my school fee and approx. AU$ 6,500 5,500 for my outreach fee (we are going to Mexico city and Cape town to apply stuff that we have learned in lectures phase). Friend, it would be wonderful if you would like to pray to God and ask Him whether He wants you to give money to me or not. And if He said yes and told you the amount, you could send the money through online payment located at
https://www.ywamperth.org.au/007/payonline.asp
noted for Ericko Steven Tandayu at School of Worship.
Or BCA Bank (Soekarno Hatta, Bandung branch) acc.number 346 15 23721, noted for Ericko Steven Tandayu.

I would appreciate it greatly if you’d either write me a short note or e-mail so that I know exactly who are supporting into my life. That way, I can also keep you in prayer. Please feel free to share any prayer requests at the same time.

Prayer requests:

• Greater Revelations and Breakthrough in my life while i’m doing this school.
• Salvation, Repentance and Discipleship in my family (my dad has not yet FULLY repent from his old life, i have 3 younger sisters and 5 younger brothers who still doesn’t have personal relationship with God).

Friend, thank you for your prayer and support. As for me here, i’m still trying to obey God one step at a time everyday towards what He has prepared for me ahead.

For His Glory,
Ericko Tandayu

Let ME be MYSELF…

How does it feel when people treated you like that you don’t have NO ROOM at all for you to move, to be yourself? When to be yourself is WRONG, and to be the person that people want you to be is the right person. Isn’t that so frustrating? I’ve been there a long time ago. I didn’t like the way i am, because I strived so hard NOT TO BE MYSELF! I became someone else beside me! So awful, awkward and terrible.

When you recognizes and values for WHO YOU ARE, it causes a response in you; It releases you to be WHO YOU ARE to the other person.

And

When you values another person for WHO THEY ARE, it causes a response in them; It releases them to be WHO THEY ARE to you.

WoW!!! It’s so TRUE and simple!! But many of us missed this point (so DID I). Did you know that God is a Person too? It means that this applies to Him to.

So, back again,

When you values God for WHO HE IS, it causes a response in Him; It releases Him to be all that He is to you.

Oooh maaan!!! I’m in trouble, that what I was said in my heart! I oftenly DISHONOUR, DISREGARD and not honouring Him in my life through my deeds, words, and thoughts. Now, I know why!!!! He wants to be in the place where He can be Himself!!! That’s Worship! Worship  have to be the place where He can be All that He is! Where is it? Is it in church? No, not at all. Anywhere could be th eplace, as long as we honour Him just the way He is, He will show up.

Friends and supporters, this is what’s in my heart that I want you to have a lifechanging experience remotely through this newsletter. Open your eyes, honour God almighty with your life.

The question is, How can we honor Him? What makes Him a God? What quality that He has? Character makes a person. We can honor or dishonor a person based on their character. Same to God, through His character we can honor Him. How can we know His character if we never have a relationship with Him? It has to be 100% Him, the fullness of His character, not 50% or even 99%! It’s not God if it’s not God!

The 2nd week of my school was about “Biblical and Historical basis of Worship”, Rob Packer from NZ spoke in our school. On the 1st day I stroke by the fact about honoring God, I have told you the story on the 1st part of this newsletter.

On Psalm 27, David proclaimed that God is his rock and his salvation. Although he surrounded by his enemies, he wasn’t afraid and fear at all. Cause he know that God is with Him! How can that be happened? Many times I’ve found that in times of trouble David could always overcome it, he always find a way to praise and honor God just the way He is. He conditioned himself to be that way, that every time circumstances comes he could only overcame it with God in his life. Verse 5 and 6 of psalm 27 said that on times of trouble God will put David high on a rock so that David’s perspective lifted up above his enemies. That’s when the victory comes!!!! When David’s perspective was lifted up above his enemies, the situation has not changed yet, but David has! His point of view has changed, he can see that his enemies is lower than him.

David’s perspective that has changed represents our heart attitude towards our troubles and problems. My heart used to not fully believes in God, eventhough i didn’t agree with the enemy’s lies i didn’t have full confidence in God. I have seen how God has provided me in my finance on my last season of my life, but still I was acting through my prayer like I have never seen Him doing miracles in my life. I did pray, but turned out my prayer was considered as whinning, complaining and even testing Him!!! I was shocked knowing the fact that I was testing God! I repented, humble myself, and seek for His mercy upon my life. It was never my intention to do that. Things that I thought was true turned was not the FULL TRUTH, it has to be 100% or else not at all!!!

I only have 2 more days before my Australian student VISA expired But you know what? The fact that I haven’t got the money physically, the fact that I still need AU$ 5,000 in 2 days, and the fact that I will also need lots of money for the next 2 month for outreach, I have changed! His truth has changed my heart, my perspective! I am standing now, looking down to my problem on a higher different ground! I am not afraid. Lacking of money won’t make me go back home to my country, I know what I’m doing here, to fulfilled God’s will. Creations shall not dictates nor ever controls The Creator. How could things like money could control God’s promises in my life? NOT A CHANCE!!!!!!! Even the sun stop shining, I will be stand HERE firmly!

For the glory of the King,

Ericko Tandayu

He is Worthy

Hiii, how you doing there?? I hope that you’re doing great and peaceful there. Wish all the best!
Just wanna let you know through this newsletter that I’m here now on my 1st day of the 2nd week of my school, School Of Worship, which so far has been STRIKINGLY AMAZING!!! On week 1 we (as a school) learned about Character of God, in more specific way. Our Speaker was Rachel. She’s been amazingly done a great, great obedience. ‘Cause she’s been preparing stuff for the lectures and turned out that God spoke to her about something else. And so, she was being obedience to the lord to shared the topic to us, on the 1st day was about
“Idolatry“.

If i could say in one sentence things that i have learned from this topic, it would be like this,
“We don’t get to choose to believe who God is, He is who He is.”

Stuff that was really stroke me was about “Do we really know and trust Him in just the way He is?”
If we truly know that He operates based on His Character, how can we gives room for; fear, rejection, worry, doubt, anger, pride, etc?
We need to LIVE IT (God’s Character)!!! I stood amazed when I heard about this teaching, i felt sooo convicted. I need to know God more and more, and the sad part is that’s not enough!! I need to LIVE it! His character needs to be ALIVE in my life! I need to embrace and acknowledge it EVERYDAY! So when circumstances comes or bad things happened in my life i will not accused, doubted Him. Instead i will keep trusting Him! It’s not just about saying this thing that everything’s gonna be alright to ourself, but waaay more beyond than that. It’s LIVING UP the TRUTH!

On the 2nd day stuff that we learned was not less intense than the 1st day, the fact was it was AMAZING (again)!
It was about
“The Worthyness of God”
I learned from the basic again, my point of view about God was being fixed. The question was, “Do i really see that God is worthy to follow?”. That all glory belongs to God and God alone. Because He is God and I am not.
I learned about Living my life for His glory and not mine. Rachel taught us that if we’re not living for God’s glory, we will living for our own glory. It feels like living underpressure, that we need to work things out perfectly everytime and that we always think what would people said about this and that if we didn’t do this and that?
To be honest, I still struggling about those area in my life. At the end of lectures those day i repented to God and you know what??
God gave me freedom!!! I just felt that He took away my glory with His, i didn’t to feel the pressure again anymore!! I don’t need to worry about anything anymore, cause it’s not about me, it’s not about my glory but it’s all about Him and His Glory!! Oh WOW! What a revelation!!!

That’s probably my highlight for last week in my school

So, I would love to get a response from you personally, tell me about your life. How’s your life lately? How your relationship with God? Is there anything I could pray for you? Please let me know, it would be my pleasure!

I do need prayer too here, here are the things that you can pray for me guys:
- Financial, still needs AU$ 5,000 (the school gave me grace until 25th April, but basically the due date is before 22nd April. Because my VISA will expired on that day)
- Revelations and Healing breakthrough.
- Growth in Character.

I know that the one who called is dependable. If He said it, He’ll do it
1 Thes 5:24

For His Glory,
Ericko Tandayu

The 2nd Journey will begin..

Heeeey Guysss!!!! What’s up??? Hope you all are doin greaat!!

So my next school is gonna start tomorrow!!! yeaah, it’s so exciting!! I have been here in Perth for the last 20 days after outreach watching all my october friends left, it’s not easy, i miss them now!! But i know i will see them someday, somehow

I’ve been praying and fasting, interceding (praying too) for people that God has put in my heart for the last 3 weeks here. It’s kinda fun!! Cause before DTS, i didn’t enjoy doing this stuff. Specifically i’ve been praying for all the october quarter regarding the next step after DTS. I felt like God moved me verry deep in this area. So what i did was i lay my hand on the chapter to every school on october quarter, praying that God will open the doors and windows to the next step!!

A Prayer

I’ve been doing a lot of reading too..One of the book that read was about VISION, it’s the biography of the founder of my chucrh in Bandung – Indonesia. His name is Jeremiah Rim. One things that reaaaally stroke me about this books is about THE POWER OF VISION!

The power of Vision.

If we already knew since we were young that we will be the President of our own country, we will prepare everything!! We will prepare every requirements for a President, probably even more than it requires!! Every minutes and every steps will considers as a VERY IMPORTANT steps!!!

It reminded me about VISION that God has put in my heart, and i need to put my steps in every way towards the vision and not away from it. I will keep my EYES to HIM!

To seeee VISION

Anyway, my School of Worship (SOW) has 11 students so far..We came from multinational which are; Indonesian (2), Korean – Canadian (2), Norwegian (2), American, German, Hawaiian (2), and Singaporean. And i also got a MACBOOK!!! Yeaaaah!! Wait a second, it’s not mine…Someone just lend it to me for free for 3 months until the lecture phase is finished!! It’s so cool, i didn’t expect this!! The things is God has promised a laptop in while i was in Indonesia, couple weeks before DTS started. And i asked him a PC’s laptop before. But 2 months ago, i got CONVERTED from PC’s into MAC’s!!! Since God hasn’t gave the laptop, i changed my wishlist! I also said to Him that i really wanna try it (MAC) first for couple days before he gave me one..And here i am, with 3 months FREE DEMO of MACBOOK!!! Hurrraaaay!! I take that as confirmation God!! This macbook will helps me BIG TIME cause i will use it for updating my journey to all of you!!! And for the assignment from the school too!! Also i will use it to record songs that God gives me, every melody in my heart..

Also i wanna updated you all guys that I’ve already got AU$100 2 days ago!!! Yeaaaaah!!! Praise God!!! I used that money for paying my deposit fee! So far here are the details of money that i still need;

• $177 for insurance
• $450 for student VISA
• $420 for 3 weeks accomodation (foods and bed at the base)
• $3900 for school fee

My School leader said that the base leader allowed me to join the school eventhough i haven’t paid the school fee. But they need to see the money soon after the school started, or else…I don’t know!!! Guys, God told me to do this school and this is not my will to do this too. So He has something for me to do here right? He also said to me that he will do Miracles!!!  On Psalm 77:14 he said that He does Miracles!!!

I would really appreciated if you willing to stand with me together to God and just keep praying until something happens!!! Like the one that’s been said,

Isaiah 62:6b-7a

…Day and night they keep at it, PRAYING, CALLING OUT, reminding God to REMEMBER. They are to GIVE HIM NO PEACE until HE DOES WHAT HE SAID… (the message bible)

I will be updating if there anything that happened!!! So let us GIVE GOD NO PEACE until HE DOES WHAT HE SAID!!!!